Monthly Archives: September 2011

Been One of Those Weeks

Before I start this post I wanted to let you all know that I’ve got something new published on Amazon Kindle! It’s called To Alaska: The Last Frontier. It’s a narrative that my great grandmother, Mary Gray Brownlee, wrote when her husband, brothers and her traveled by road to Alaska in March 1948. There’s also some really sweet pictures that go with the story but I couldn’t get them to work so you can view them on Flickr by following this link:

Alright on to my sorry excuse for a post.

It has been one of those weeks. I wrote about Jack’s new quirks last week and they have made this week challenging and full of tears and tantrums from Jack and me. I know it’s a phase, I know he’ll eventually be able to talk and that will make things easier. However, as things stand now … each night I am so terribly exhausted. I don’t even feel rested the next morning. But I will power through, and try to focus on the positive. I also get to go to Canada sans child this weekend so that will be a nice break I think.

I thought I had something really great to post about, but I started to write it and it was … not what I was hoping. So I’m not going to strain myself. I will say that I have two new stories in the works right now and that makes me very happy. I’m pretty excited about both. Hopefully it won’t take me five years to write them.

Awolnation- Sail

Great song, with an alien abduction video. Extra points for Awolnation.

Song of the Day

Because the video is Legos and the song makes me laugh.

New Quirks

Jack is developing new quirks every day. It is truly amazing to watch this little human being become a person before my eyes. His personality is showing through more with each day that passes. He’s stubborn, determined, can have a fiery temper at the drop of a hat; but at the same time he is contemplative, quiet and cuddly. One moment he’s fiercely independent and the next he wants to hold my hand or sit in my lap.

He’s definitely a two year old and has started to show it through his actions. He’s babbling a lot but still doesn’t say a lot of actual words. Two new things I’m getting used to are Jack wanting to sit at the table instead of in his high chair and he suddenly hates going to bed, it doesn’t matter if it’s nap time or bed time, he does not want to go.

Sitting at the table is no big deal, I simply let him choose where he wants to eat.

But not wanting to go to bed is really a test of patience. I would like the days of easy bedtime back. I’m having to find new strategies of getting him to bed. I start telling him it’s almost time for bed, about half an hour before we actually have to clean up and go to bed. That’s another thing, if I ask him to clean up that too is full of tears since he knows right after we’re done we’ll have to go upstairs and go to bed. Once cleaning up starts it’s a battle until the the lights are out and his door is closed.

I’ve also discovered that I have to wear him out a lot before nap if I actually want him to sleep. The only way to effectively wear him out is by taking him outside to play for at least an hour. Once the weather turns sour again I’m not sure how I’m going to get him to sleep. Today is the first day this week that he’s actually fallen asleep at nap time.

But honestly I’m fascinated by these new things. Because even though it’s harder to get him to bed, and even though he insists on sitting at the table, it all makes up who he is. I know most little kids don’t like bedtime, but watching him deal with the emotions of not wanting to go bed is sort of neat; at least now in hindsight, when I’m not blinding by exhaustion, irritation and deafness by screaming.

I knew I would love being a mom; but I wasn’t prepared for the total devotion and fascination that comes with watching them grow into a person.

Song of the Day

Because I’m going to his show on Friday and also because he’s just awesome.

mc chris- Never Give Up

Song of the Day

Like many people, music plays a huge roll in my life. I love almost any kind of music; music with lyrics, silly songs, meaningful songs, songs with no lyrics, it’s really something I love. I decided to start doing song of the day posts. These won’t happen everyday. This isn’t an attempt to turn my blog into a music blog, I don’t have the musical knowledge for that. Sometimes I want to share songs that get stuck in my head or that I find particularly wonderful. So here is my first song of the day post!

The Afters – Light Up the Sky

A Hawaiian Vacation

I am writing this in the living room of our condo rental on Maui in the Hawaiian Islands. What a wonderful and rejuvenating vacation this has been. The  California and Arizona getaways I’ve taken this year have been fun, but there was not a lot of relaxing going on. There was always something to do, someone to see, something to get done,  somewhere to drive; which is fine, but as far as real relaxation goes there was little of it. On this vacation I have slept when I wanted, read when I felt like it, watched movies, played games, snorkeled, body boarded and swam in the ocean. I’ve indulged in the best luau on all of the islands (according to a trustworthy local) and admired the tattooed Hawaiian men. I even found what I believe will be my next tattoo.

This Hawaiian getaway has resulted in a lot of good conversations with my brother in law’s girlfriend. I feel ready to go back to Seattle as a strong, confident woman, ready to make the decisions that have been haunting me since January 2010. Just because they’re scary choices I have to make doesn’t mean I can’t handle them myself.

Below are some highlights of our vacation before my waterproof camera decided it was not waterproof and died.

View of the beach from our lanai

Jessica and I in the ocean on our first day

A gecko I named Francisco. He hung around our stairs the first couple of days.

(This post was written on Tuesday of this week. I am now back on the mainland. I missed my kiddo a lot and I’m pretty sure he missed me.)